Do I seek to protect those I love?

Or expose them to the good, the bad and the ugly?  Do I keep from them the anger?  Or show them, in a way of saying "I trust you to handle this"?  Do I hold my tongue, when God has bade me "speak" so as not to disturb the delicate balance of some who would have me silent?

what dichotomy...when I know my God would forgive when the some would not...To disobey such a command...would be the end for some, but another beginning-another trial from my God...Is it not easier to forsake God than forsake our fellow human being-when that fellow human being is the one who would discipline immediately and God's discipline is delayed?  Immediately ten lashings? or eventually eternity?

In those words the choice is easy, but in the realm of feelings-obscured by desires...what a cunnundrum. What absolute treachery?  The sea of emotion almost impassable! Unnavigatable!  Oh that I should not be victim of such mess!

And what a horrible circumstance to be the knights fighting "in the name of God" when God should want PEACE!  What horrible truth to be the man that God makes an example out of!  What "NOT TO DO!", He says!  Oh not for me! I say....Lead me to your Tower, Lord that I may never offend....Cut out my tongue that I may never disobey!  Thwart my actions that I may never inherit the realm of wickedness!  Oh Light the way that I may expose! and lead to light! those lost!

what delicate balance....